Me and B

We all have things in our past we either regret or at least are not overly proud of. I’d say that if you don’t have such things, you haven’t done much living. Our lives and characters are shaped by them, and how we dealt with their consequences or what we learned from them.

I know someone who used to be a very important person in my life. As is often the case, we grew apart. It happens. We would periodically intersect with each other, but it never “took”. The most recent episode of our spotty history has seemingly come to an end.

From what I can gather, this individual is particularly antagonistic towards his own past. He’s rewritten, at least publicly, a lot of his own personal history, inserting details that didn’t actually happen and removing details that did. I’m not sure to what end. He’s made some very dramatic breaks with his past. And, to be honest, it looks like he’s somewhat come to terms with some aspects. But when it comes to me, I’m apparently a reminder of that from which he wishes to escape, and I have to go down the Memory Hole.

Maybe I’m being melodramatic. After all, it could just be the fact that he now has come to realize what a big useless geek I am and wants nothing to do with me which hey, I can’t really blame him for, if that’s the case. But from what I’ve seen (been allowed to see) it really seems like he’s profoundly unhappy with who he is and has traced it back to who he was.

I can take not only a hint but a direct message, and I’ll leave well enough alone. I wish him all the best and hope he finds the peace he’s looking for.

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6 Responses to Me and B

  1. blathering says:

    I guess I know who this is. Actually I had a similar experience with someone from HS, she wanted to re-write who she was…which I get. But it meant cutting off all the folks who knew her as someone different. Oh well.

  2. David Thiel says:

    Man, that Beebo can be stone cold.

  3. Blasterhappy says:

    Good one Thiel!

  4. Dave says:

    Ohh ohh man I know this one. A woman I was involved with said some pretty rough stuff about me while trying to reinvent herself (here if you wanna check it out, about halfway down, http://parallelsidewalk.wordpress.com/2009/01/03/redefining-pi-as-143/). I really wish people could reinvent themselves without slandering their friends.

  5. Dave H. says:

    Hey, I’d just like to throw out that I for one am really happy to have reconnected with you, even if only virtually. However, that FB NO BBS group invite was just a little more than I could handle. Some things really are best forgotten :-).

  6. Dave says:

    Same here, Dave H! And I totally understand about that group. Not sure what I’m thinking there…