Bear with me because this is going to sound weird.
So you know how I have been on Facebook and Twitter, right? Well, recently I had a bit of a crisis concerning them.
Here’s the thing: I am an introvert. I grew up something of a loner (yet not really a rebel) and have remained one. I don’t like crowds, I’m uncomfortable at parties (even if I know and like everyone there), and although I can handle mindless chitchat with strangers, I avoid it if I can. I’ve always had few, but close, friends. I hate talking on the phone. I have an almost medicinal need for “alone time” and have no problem being on my own. This is how it’s been pretty much all my life and I’m more or less okay with it.
Recently on both Twitter and Facebook I was feeling a bit overwhelmed. On Twitter, I had added a lot of people I don’t know, but who had followed me, or who were “friends” of “friends”. On Facebook I had added some folks from Boardgamegeek, some co-workers, and again, some “friends” of “friends”. And at some point it tipped, and I was starting to get way too much input. The constant updates from people I barely knew was actually causing me stress, which I know sounds stupid, but there you go.
So last night I did some purging. I dropped a bunch of folks from both services. If you were one of them, I’m sorry, you didn’t do anything wrong. I just reached some kind of psychological limit, I guess.
While I was at it, I also dumped a lot of the blogs I was reading, largely because I wasn’t really reading them. Chief of these was BoingBoing, which had simply become unbearable lately.
Things are a lot better for me now. I feel like there are a lot fewer people chattering at me and expecting something from me. It’s strange, the medication I’ve been on has handled almost every aspect of my depression and other mental foolishness so well that when something like this manifests itself, it kind of throws me off a bit.
Once again, if you don’t get a follow from me or if I don’t approve your friend request, I’m sorry. It’s a limitation of my own. It’s not you, it’s me.